Friday, April 29, 2011

Blog blah blah blah

A blog? What!? I have one of those things?
And wait... you mean I'm supposed to write entries for it? Frequently? I can't just abandon it and let it fend (okay, "write") for itself?

I think the better question is have I abandoned it?
"If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?"
Well if it looks like it, smells like it and taste like it, it probably is it... meaning if I even have to ask that question there's probably a problem.
And by the way I think I'm totally misusing that quote above about the trees... but a) I like trees, b) I think it makes me sounds smarter and c) if out of my disgusting negligence in the up-keep of this blog I've lost all readers I guess said quote would apply... If there aren't readers than is there anyone to witness this attempt at blog-ressusitation?

Well at any rate the near death of this blog was not due to a lack of inspiration. Believe me, I've had plenty of inspiration! So much has happened in the last 6 weeks... shoot in the last two months that I hardly know where to begin. My problem is not that there's nothing to say, rather there's too much. The Adventures of Jesus and Jessika continues... Ha ha!! But what's new? Honestly, I've come to regard the "drama" as, well, a friend (dare I say it...). Instead of cringing as I see drama approach I've learned to embrace it. I can't believe I'm saying this... But drama (I prefer to call it adventure) certainly makes life interesting. It can be a little dull when everything's just dandy.

But my inspiration doesn't just come from the drama (adventure) of my life. I do have other sources... Books, songs, new artists, new websites... my curious observations/running commentary on the many narratives in A Midsummer Night's Dream (the ballet we just finished performing). Of course there's always the endless lessons the Lord's been teaching me. And within each of these branches exist a dozen different rabbit trails I could go down.

So which trail am I going to blaze through tonight? Well the trail blazing is gonna have to wait till tomorrow... it's late (well early) and I have a wedding to watch.
Me thinks the post-mortem post (or post-resurrection?) will have something to do with white gowns and all-things wedding.
Aw... but I can't leave you with nothing (not that all this is nothing!). Here's a song by an artist I just discovered that I'm totally obsessed with. Here name is JJ Heller - her voice is heavenly and her songs are divine! In particular, the lyrics in this song "Small" say so much of what the Lord's been teaching me this year... To not keep Him in a box, but to truly live Luke 1:37:
"For nothing is impossible with God."

Saturday, April 2, 2011

An Internal Struggle

Dear Body,

Would you please stop screaming at me? There's absolutely no need to shout... I can hear you just fine.
And to be quite frank I'd appreciate it if you'd stop. This incessant whining isn't getting either of us anywhere. I mean we're both mature... I know, I know... you hate it when I call you "mature." Well I didn't say "old" did I? Though sometimes you look a bit decrepit and can act like a cantankerous old crow... Did I say that? Whoops... I meant to keep that one to myself. Guess it just slipped out. Sorry.
But my point is fighting in this childish manner isn't going to get us anywhere, and your constant nagging and complaining only exacerbates things. In other words: you're not helping.
Body, we need to work together. We're a team. Remember?! It's you and me.
I know I've been hard on you lately, with all the demands I've loaded on your plate... You were such a trooper, rising to the challenge of learning and performing Marco Goecke's Place a Chill with so little actual rehearsal time in the last Rep. And then to flip a switch like you have, transitioning from contemporary ballet to classical overnight, and putting together A Midsummer Night's Dream in 4 days?! I couldn't ask for more!
I mean who could blame you for looking a little tired and weather-beaten? And I'm not saying you look bad... but, well, you need some rest. Shoot! We both could use some rest.
So for both our sakes, could you give it a rest and let me go to sleep right now? Pretty please? I'll love you forever if you'll just grant me this one request. I promise I won't neglect you tomorrow. We'll spend some quality time together... just the two of us. How does that sound? Good?
Well goodnight Body. We'll talk tomorrow. Thanks for hanging in there and calming down a little. You're doing a great job. It's okay... everyone has a freak-out every once in a while. Don't worry about it. Now you rest up, 'cause you deserve it!


Your Better Half (a.k.a. the rest of Jessika)